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Saturday, March 29, 2014

The Provencials

I screwed up the kata, I screwed up the kumite, but team Unagi NAILED the team kata! We got first place! We get little trophies, it was epic!

My very first trophy!

We got 21.3 in total, while the other teams had 21.1 and 20.9 or so. It's pretty amazing, we really earned it since we've been practicing for a whole month like an hour or two each week.
I'm so drained, tired and sore from yesterday and today's practice.
I really like heian godan though.


Friday, March 28, 2014



Tomorrow is the karate provincials, meaning karate students will be competing against the whole province. It's not that elaborate, but it's definitely something!

The most thing I practiced for was our Team Kata! I'm doing Godan (fifth kata) with justin and Trav. We took a few minutes figuring out what our team kata name will be. we were thinking of something a little Japanese, and when Justin said sushi, I was hungry enough to consider it. Then he looked at me and said, Salmon Fish Role which at that we both grinned and pointed two fingers to our temples, twisting our hands saying "Unagi!" XD after laughing and high fiving each other, we all agreed to the name!

For all of you who did not watch Friends and don't understand the joke:

Oh, Ross!

I will also be competeing in the kata competition and in the one step sparring "Ippon kumite". I really hope we get a medal! We practiced really hard!

Pray for me,

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Quote of the Day: Toy

"He's not a toy...
                           ...not yet a woman."

-my sister singing "not a girl" by britney spears.

We laughed a good minute on that, I still can't picture it! xD

Monday, March 17, 2014


Oh, God! I have a follower! >o<

after almost two years, I got my first follower!

I had a feeling when I saw "how to follow" post and then I was in full shock. Not only do I have a follower, but I've never talked to that person before, so it isn't like he's following me because he knows me.

His blog looks a bit cooler than mine, but his bio seems so close to mine, that I thought I was reading about myself. How cool is that! =D nyahahaah I guess I found my niche: manga


Paroxysmal Supraventricular Tachycardia (PSVT)


I finally have a name for it! For my heart palpitations that I've been getting. The ones that jump as high as 276 bpm.
The doctor finally revealed to me that they suspect it's Paroxysmal Supraventricular Tachycardia (PSVT). To be honest, I already know it was tachycardia, and I had a feeling it could be that, but I was also worried it might be Atrial Flutter and that one can cause a stroke.

The PSVT is something you're born with and it can start appearing in childhood or adolescence, and I first started getting them at 12.

They are not critical, "benign" is the word the doctor used. Everyone kept repeating the same thing though, if there's no irregular heart beat, no dizziness, no fainting spells, no headache, and you're breathing fine then there is nothing to worry about. If there is, I should go to the ER! Yeah, I wish the asshole told me what it actually was. Interesting enough though, that I was practically able to diagnose myself.
I think I really wanna be a cardiologist. I really am interested in the heart as confusing as it may be, it does hold a certain fascination to it.

what's amazing is that my physiology of the cell finally came in handy, as we are currently studying about the nodes in the heart that send these signals to pump blood. These nodes are what's wrong with me.

I think I'll be fine, I'm glad I have a name for it now. I might discuss it further later on. Right now, I'm busy!


Oh, also blood results came out, so far only thing wrong with me is lipidemia, which means I have some fat tissues floating around in my blood, and I lack vitamin D. Other wise, everything seems okay.

Sunday, March 16, 2014


When we were little kids, we used to collect some ants and put them in a container.
Little did I know they needed air.

Ten years later I'm doing the same thing, but with flies.
Little did I know they needed water.

Quote of the Day: Dreams

me on watsapp: wah, i dreamed I was grocery shopping and the cereal was too expensive to buy!!! Dx
sister :" I dreamed that we went to the pool and I shaved everything except my armpits so I couldn't swim :("


well, anyways. This guy just called me clueless and sent me this video saying that I remind him of the last two guys in this video ._____.

I'm not that clueless, am I?

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Don't Wake Me by Skillet Parody

Don't eat me,
Cause I don't wanna be your food,
Don't eat me,
Cause I probably don't taste that good,
and now that you're hungry, I don't wanna be lunch.

Ali's Will

The will of imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib to his sons

" Beware...

...of the generous if you insulted him, of the intelligent if you embarrassed him,
of the miserly if you gave to him, of the idiot if you joked with him, and of the licentious if you lived with him.

and I have tasted all the pleasures, and I found nothing more pleasurable than health,
and I have tasted all the bitterness, and I found nothing more bitter than needing others,
and I have carried boulders and iron, and I found nothing heavier than the weight of debt.

And know that life is two days, a day that is with you and a day that is against you. So, if the day is with you don't be reckless, and if the day is against you don't be weary. So, be patient because both will ebb. "

This is just a snippet of a long will he wrote to his sons before he died of poisoning. I just really liked this part enough to translate it.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Quote of the Day: My Spot

So, I was sitting on the couch when... "stop sitting there. You can't just sit everywhere."

-My sister when her skin is irritated .____. she gets so moody.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

personal check

heart palpitation today in karate during the jump in the hien godan.

um...light headache cuz only slept 5 hours!


no good courses

Registration for 2nd years starts tomorrow, there are only 4  3rd and 4th year bio classes  that are not ecology (diversity and ecology of fish, insect ecology, mycology, orinthiology) I shit you not, those are legit courses.

The prehealth cleasses that are availabke are alreadt half full or more.

Let the hunger games begin!

And may the odds ever be in my favor.

after second midterm of cell physiology

Dear Diary,

Fuck my life.


Monday, March 10, 2014

Nauseating Blood Test

Remember when I said my blood pressure was 80 over something, yeah WRONG!
That day, my blood pressure was 97/59. Which is pretty low, but I doubt all that concerning.

Anyways, I took a blood test this morning. She filled up about 5 vials or so. right around the fourth one, I felt extremely nauseous; even though I was looking away (Excuse me for not enjoying looking at a person probing me with a needle as my life essence flows out.)
It has never happened to me before, this ratchet feeling of vomitting while my blood is being drained. It felt like my heart was beating a little quicker, my skin was flushed, and my stomach was just curling up around it self! Then I think she was trying to converse with me to distract me, because she said I might be feeling nauseous due to a vadovagal reaction. Shouldn't I always have that reaction then at each blood test? I don't know, then after I asked her about my previous blood pressure, she told me it could be due to low blood pressure and asked me if I eat regular amount of salt. There's a thought!
I asked her whether or not people should fast before a blood test, and she almost had a fit. She said she keeps reminding the doctors to tell us that there's no need for us to fast before a blood test unless it's to check the sugar or something else that I have forgotten.
and I relieved her by telling her that the doctor did mention it, and I have not fasted, I was just curious.
Scary nurse, but very informative.

Clench your fist when she inserts the needle, relax your arm when she inserts the vial. or at least, that's what a nurse who knows what she's doing would say. It shouldn't hurt a lot, mostly when the needle inserts you. Otherwise, kick the nurse.

Results are in on monday, my nausea left me a few minutes afterwards, but I still feel like my tummy is making flips.

Diet my sister, mom, and I are on is working. To think I would ever diet. Well, I ate icecream on both days, so it's more like food limitation for me.

I also finished my psych exam and I think I did really well on it.

I don't know how tomorrows physio exam will be, I hate it, I hate her, I hate myself, and I hate you.


Saturday, March 8, 2014

Generation Y

Hello people!

Yesterday was an another exhausting day!

I woke up planning to drop my permission letter to take a summer course to my sister's university, when she suddenly decided she will drop me off because I don't know where the register's office was.
So, we did that, then I went to my university to see the honor students' posters hung on the walls. I didn't really understand anything, nor was I any type of interested. I merely went there to show my support for my friend "Revi". I ate two pizzas there, then I transferred my flies..augh, let's not talk about that experiment...
Anyways, I also studied a little bit then went to the meeting for Generation Y : tomorrow needs you today.
It's a cute and fluffy
"Chinese Dragon"
I wasn't all that interested in David Suzuki's daughter, or our chemistry prof, or the MP. I came to see my genetics professor's son, a doctor. He was kinda cute to be honest! They all talked here and there, where I felt like a dumb ass once again. not even that, more like a passive, emotionless person who lacks ambition, passion, and devotion. Which made me a little upset. I then ate at the mini bar then rushed to volunteer at the Metro University Relay for Life.
It was tons of fun there. I mostly restocked the snack booth with a girl I knew. I also had my face painted!

We were supposed to stay there until 7:00 am, but I have two exams next week and decided, hey! I need to sleep. So, at 1:00 am, the busses weren't working, and the university patrol wasn't working. A committee member then offered to drive me home, which I'm so grateful for! It was like he came from God or something.
He said he needed the break, and it turned out he's from my university as well!
He's such a sweet guy.

I then went im procrastinating like a bitch and my sister and I have decided...well she decided to start this stupid diet shit, and I'm going along with it because I need to lose weight and couldn't care less about shit.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

health check of the day

Heart palpitation today during practice in karate, bout 240 bpm
also checked blood pressure in shoppers. Slightly below optimal blood pressure. But that was after I ate a dougg
hnut, brownie, sandwich and  excersized for two hours.
I will try again in the morning.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Low Blood Pressure

had my doctor appointment today. It appeared I had low blood pressure that day, I think 80/ 70 or 80/40....I don't remember! I just remember the "80"
I think normal is 120/90 or so. so either way it's pretty damn low. Was low enough for the doctor to say that she's never seen blood pressure that low and she even laughed but turned to me and said it's normal for someone my size. .__.;
I don't personally like her...
She checked my thyroid and decided I get a blood test. my appointment is next week. AUGH! Then i have to go back to her after wards, and then get an appointment with a cardiologist, and an ECG test...and I also need to beg every doctor I see for a holter monitor.

I freaked my mom and sister out though, with the blood pressure news. I got yelled at by both which made me regret ever telling them. I really don't want my family to freak out, but I want the doctors to freak out. so long as I don't feel pain, irrigular heart rythem, dizziness or shortness of breath, then I won't be getting any special attention.

I tried to calm them down by belittling it, but the thing is I know I have bardicardia (slow heart beats) because it was 45 bpm when I was lying down when the average is 60-90 bpm when you're resting. Though it isn't dangerous, and it's nothing to worry about, but it could explain my low blood pressure.

I just hate it when my family worrys a lot about it, because I feel so embarressed that I'm suddenly the center of attention, and that I was in grave danger or whatever when I know that this isn't the case. If they really worried about me, they could've done more checking up when I was 13 and 14 years old instead of yell at me for forgetting the numbers when i am clearly busy with my school, karate, and other things. I hate how my parents are making it such a big deal now.
I know it isn't dangerous, the palpitations I have, but I just want to know what's causing it.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Asian Men (Girl Talk)

That's it! I like eastern asian men! I can't help it! >o< with all the mangas I read, it probably influenced me a bit, but come ON! They rarely have any body hair, which I kinda find gross, and some of them have really smooth skin and most importantly for me is that jaw bone.

The best part in a man is that jawbone, I don't know, I feel like it makes him look manly and shapes the face really well. they also look really good with long hair, short hair, spiky hair, dyed hair, and even messy hair. It's just pretty amazing.

Korean Actor: Jang Hyuk
and just, look at this body: UH!

Just look at this body: AUGH!
Just, look a this body: gah!

They work out! and when they walk in the room...this is what..wait..back to subject.

That's something also nice about their body, is that that I don't like guys to be too skinny, but also not insanely bulging muscles either. So, my type would be more of the guy in the last picture instead of the middle picture. If they were a bit tan, that would be so much nicer. hmm, heck even if they don't have any muscles but work out like that  vietnamese guy I know. DAMN, his body is so hot, and I usually don't give a flying crap towards stomachs because I think belly buttons are disgusting. Wow I trailed off, but his beach picture on facebook, was very nice. He didn't have abs, but his tummy was smooth and he looked like he worked out. hmm... would be nicer if he tanned a bit. I think I'll save that pic of him. Don't judge me, I know you guys save pics of hot people too. I mean, I can't just collect anime pictures all the time.

I don't know. and it isn't just their bodies, I mean, they have such cute faces, and adorable smiles. Sure, they're eyes aren't their best features, but it's like that little imperfection that makes the person even more special you know? and it kinda grows on you too.

and I just tried to search for pictures of asians, and I just got like two dicks right after i clicked enter. Apparently "topless" means "naked". wow, that concludes our pictures for today. ....


I know those pictures I posted are of actors and i think a swimmer? so that isn't fair and so I tried looking for normal guys, but now I'm a little scared.
It's just my university is stock filled with transfer students from china, japan and KSA. well, the eastern asians took over the school of commerce and I see a lot of them, and a lot of them are cute. Some have a cute walk, others look so disgusting with their blank stares, but some have adorable smiles and cute laughs and such amazing jaw lines, and long necks... and they always look clean as opposing to other people.

I know, I'll search for university people! They can't mistake "university" for "naked" right?!

It's just that most asians I've met are either average, or cute. even if they're not cute, the longer you look, the more they rub off on you. With arabs, for example, the guy is either good looking, ugly, or average. Even then, some guys are good looking but they just disgust you, so you immediately block him in your head.
I wanna marry an asian! yes, an asian muslim. He'll be the most passive man on earth! Like that Malaysian guy I met! He was very sweet, helpful, and kind. He showed support in the ProPalestinian protest and was even like all of Malaysia respect and support Palestine. and I thought, "oh, you little ambassador you!" and he never did that creepy compliments some guys do whenever they meet a woman. "oh, you're so beautiful." shit. creepy as hell mofo, don't go around flirting with women. yeah, I'd like a Malaysian Muslim husband, or like a Japanese Muslim husband, and then I'll have a reason to learn Japanese! I think Japanese muslims are so rare though.
awww, they're so cute!

... and suddenly,  I can't find any cute Asians any more. Seriously?!

but, I did find this cute baby =D

aww, look at those eyes.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Election Fail

waah, I lost the bio society election. I always had a feeling that Simone would win, but it still kinda hurts.
Oh well, it could be for the best, as God had said "...and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know..."
" وَعَسَىٰ أَنْ تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَكُمْ ۖ وَعَسَىٰ أَنْ تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَكُمْ ۗ وَاللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنْتُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ"

That verse proved to be correct so many times in university for me. It's funny how the older I get the more I feel I can relate to the verses in the Quran. Things about struggling make more sense now, verses about other people make more sense now ( like that verse about how some people, even if they act nice to you, would rather you not believe in God) I personally thought that was a little weird until I went to the internet, so I thought, "hey, people on the internet are psychos anyways", then I met some people. Just to show the people in the internet are just limitlessly expressing themselves since they know it's all anonymous.