Something Sweet

My sister and I visited a friend who had recently given birth. Her child was all kinds of adorable, like a cat. And I absolutely adore kittens, perhaps the only creatures that evoke an unconditional love to. It had me thinking, if a child was this small, and adorable, and with such a sweet temperament, then perhaps it wouldn't be bad to adopt younger kids. It would be more interesting if I adopted a child whilst i breastfed my own. In islam, my own child and the adopted one would become siblings in nursing (thus never able to marry/ don't have to cover up in front of each other, etc.) Which would make them feel more like siblings growing up.

That would be absolutely beautiful.

With that being said,  my sister told me something really sweet on the car ride home. She said out of all of us, she thinks I would love my children the most. I was taken back by her sudden comment, and she said it's due to my possessive nature that I would love my children a lot. I never quite considered it from that perspective before, but she may be on to something.

I think she would make a good mom too though, I think anyone who puts enough effort can be a good mom. 

I wonder what the future holds.

Peace,

M.D.

A Fated Meeting between a Boy and a Cat

The boy walking home found a corpse of a cat on the street

as it was hit by a car.

He shrugged and kept walking home.

Soon enough the next day he was walking back from home.

He heard tiny mews.

Curious to the sound, he looked around and found a small kitten. The first encounter.

He picked the kitty up and took it home, assuming the deceased cat was the mother.

The next day he walked home

He heard another mew.

He looked some more and found another kitten. Startled by his findings he tried to look around had he missed more kittens, considering a litter can be up to six.

He found none.

He carried the second kitten home to its brother and did his best at washing them.

The third day he heard yet another mew, this time much more faint.

Panicked at the fact the mother has been deceased for several days, the kitten must be starved.
He looked around and found two more kittens, the latter barely moving.

He carried the two kittens back to their two siblings at home and put them in a shoe box, fed them some formula milk, and wrapped a blanket around a hot water bottle to keep them warm.

A couple of days passed, and their swollen eyes had not yet opened, unusual to their presumed age.

The vet said their eyes were infected, gave them some shots and said there isn't much he can do.

The kittens woke the kid up at night to drink.

Soon, they got strong enough to climb up his shirt, impatient kittens unable to wait while their siblings were being bottle fed.

They were beginning to play with one another, the first found kitten developed a habit of lapping at its siblings before falling asleep.

The swelling did not reduce and one kitten developed an infection between its legs.

The boy and his mother rushed the kittens to the vet, but nothing could be done.

They were put to sleep.

The end

The kid was me.

(Minor details altered in the story.)

Peace, M.D.

Failed the MCAT a 4th time.

I feel like I'm mourning the death of my unborn child.

I met all the minimum requirements 'cept for one. 123 on CARS (Critical Analysis & Reasoning Skills) section. 128 on Psych, and 126 on the rest. Absolutely pitiful.

It's pathetic that I should even feel this upset about something so mundane, yet I can't help but mourn my efforts and try and try and try and try again just to get crushed by this scaled exam that so many pass with ease.

Peace,
M.D.

3rd Project for Simulated Patient: The OSCE!

God, what a long day!

I just returned from my job as a simulated patient. I was participating in the OSCE exam, which today tested first year medical students.

We did four runs, and each run had ten students, and some resting time. I arrived by 7:30 am then left at 6:45 pm, but the great thing about this, is that it wasn't a hard job, it's actually really fun and I thoroughly enjoyed it. At first I was really nervous, because I had to have the questions I'm asking the students memorized, not my forte! I was afraid I would forget or mislead them in their responses. But, I got better and it's so interesting seeing the different faces and answers to my questions.

The food was great, so many veggie options and lots of snacks!!

 I really learned so much. I mean, I feel that I nailed how to answer the questions I asked, that's one. But, I think I learned how to answer questions too, I feel I learned how to give feedback from watching the examiners (and medical professionals) give constructive criticism and positive reviews to the students. I'm working on my own body language, seeing that my feet don't touch the floor because I'm vertically challenged, I tend to cross my legs, which is closed body language. So, I'm trying to lean forward while I sit so that I would avoid this.

Moreso, I networked a lot. chatting with the examiners and other fellow simulated patients really helped me pick my thoughts. For once, one person told me to look into optometry and orthoptics. While I knew optometry, I never knew orthoptics exists. Another person told me to check with Downtown's business commission because some events will be held and he recommended I ask that I face paint at those upcoming events. This could actually be great for the fundraiser I'm doing for the homeless shelter this year. I think I will do one event for myself and the other for donation. I mean, I am trying to make some money to pay off for the MCAT course I've taken.

When a 76 year old doctor talks to you about medicine and you almost cry... that was me as I was waiting for the bus indoors. It's pretty unfortunate that I'm caught between committing to medicine..and learning when to let go.

I think I'm very tenacious...so, it's quite difficult to balance the two.

Hopefully, all goes well, because if you're Korean you may understand this, I'm stuck in still water. I'm stuck in a lake...and the water just isn't flowing.

Peace,
M.D.

Quote of the Day: Herpes

MCAT Bio Instructor: So, the virus can be inactivated for even ten years sometimes.
                                    But a stressor, like the MCAT, can activate it sooner.



MCAT: Activating all the herpes!

6000 BC

Mom told me she missed me today. It makes me feel all fluttery because she rarely ever says these things, but she's doing so more often. Even dad called this year; he never calls. He also picked up the phone twice since new years.

Man, the conversation at the end with my mom was rather dull, but it felt so nice listening to her ramble about the presidents of the united states, then proceed in listing the rulers of Egypt since 6000 BC. It was kind of cute, actually, how silly this whole conversation was.

I then went to work for two hours, helping adjust the character I was to portray as a simulated patient. The first name I could come up with was "Farah Ahmed", so I figured I might as well make her Egyptian with that name!

I cooked some pasta at home, broke a glass on the counter, then the broken piece rolled and shattered on the floor. Fun.

Now, it's rather late, but I'll still try to fit some studying in.

Overall, today was a good day.

Peace,
M.D.

Two Cop Cars Came Over

I brought the cops yesterday midnight to my sister's workplace. The building is shared by more than one organization and I opened the wrong door from the inside while looking for a book/game closet. The door had a lock on it, but it wasn't even closed, so when I opened it, it set an alarm.

We were on our way out too, I just wanted to grab a game for Math Club (a program I volunteer in). I didn't know what to do other than close the door again, and i hesitantly told my sister so, we basically rushed out. By the time we left, two cop cars pulled over with one of the men who work at that company and I felt SO bad for waking him and wasting their time. So, I told the cop that if he's here because of the beeping, it was because of me. It was so awkward, but he actually thanked me after asking why we were there in the first place.

It was pretty scary how the two cops cars swerved over in front of our parked car. Don't wanna do that again!

I laughed all the way home in disbelief while my sis was scolding me. Can scratch that off the bucket list! Though, I don't believe it was ever on it.

Peace,M.D.

Jane Elliot

Augh....New obsession: Jane Elliot

Every once in a while, I become fixated on a topic, absolutely engrossed in it, perhaps due to my tenacious nature.

Topics vary from the Sansons: the executioner family of pre-revolution France; The Palestinian "situation"; The Saga of Darren Shan, etc...

This time I can't help but be involved with Jane Elliot's many similar videos and experiments on racism and subconscious discrimination.

So, I urge everyone to watch this snippet of what she says and how she delivers her message:

Now, you may already heard of Jane Elliot, or at least her infamous social experiment on her 3rd grade students: Blue Eyes/ Brown Eyes in which she divided her classroom based on the colour of their eyes and gave superiority to one, inferiority to the other, and watched as they mistreated each other solely for that reason. Grades, behaviour, reasonings, and friendships were ALL affected. Derogatory terms were even based on eye colour "blue eyes" was used as an insult.

I can't stop watching videos about her. She's a remarkable teacher, observer, and human being. God bless her.

Peace,

M.D.

Love me, love me not

So, this valentines, I discover that my friend who often flirts with me and jokes about marrying me for years turned out that he never actually liked me as more than just friends. Which was bittersweet for me, because I felt very uncomfortable and rather awkward thinking he did. At the same time, I appreciated the concept that someone out there thought I'm a suitable match.

I suppose I let it get to my ego. How embarrassing. 

Happy Valentines day,

M.D.

NTD's fundraiser!

I was asked to face paint for NTD's society fundraiser for this year as well. 

It was very interesting! I face painted this one tipsy girl and she said I did so well that she would recommend and pay me for my services for her future events. So, I gave her my number and contact info. Later on, she bought me a drink but I had to decline it because I don't drink. Then she asked who i should give this to, that I should just point at someone and she will say it was from me. I also rejected because that's indirectly giving someone alcohol. But then we sat down and she held my hand and told me that I should be rewarded somehow and I can ask for anything. It was quite funny, uncomfortable and yet a little cute.

Speaking of cute, the dj was fiiine! I walked towards his booth to request a song, but he couldn't hear me and asked me to come from the back. At first I did not see him properally because I took off my glasses, but once he got close he took my vreath away. He was so good looking, with long xlean tight dreads, and the perfect type and amount of cologne that just teases ur nose then disappears.

Man, last year it was a cute white british guy, this year a cute black man. I wonder who I would see next year!