Relief

    Alhumdulellah my Death test went alright, I answered everything, but I can never say that I'll get a good mark. It can really fluctuate between a full mark and a C-. This is how unpredictable this professor is. He is sweet sometimes and easy with the grading, other times he subtracts marks for misreading, some times he's just very harsh! Today, for example, anyone late to the test was not granted permission to take the test! It was gut wrenching seeing this, because I'm almost always late to the first class of the day because it's at 8:00 AM. I felt like, there was no need for that, as a student I don't feel that it affects me if someone came half an hour late, took the test and did better than me in it. It really doesn't effect me.

     I went to my ecology lab prof. even though it wasn't her office hour. She was very sweet and helped explain every single thing I didn't understand. I went with my lab partner and we did the numbers together in the Atrium. All I have to do now is write it down in paragraph form and print it.

        I have also went to the science adviser. She was extremely nice too, she wasn't as helpful as I would like, but she gave me what I wanted; reassurance. She told me I can just take a third year biology course, or an art. She did leave me the option of going to the biology chair person to see if she can rearrange my lab so that I can speak to the professor (when he is known) about being accepted in genetics for the next semester. I really hope it's the Dave prof. I really love that prof!

Oh, I am so sleepy right now, I'm so tired that I feel dizzy and a little nauseous. Which reminds me, my sister is sick. I hope she get better soon!

Pray for her,
M.D.

Thank YOU!

Wow, almost 30 $ worth of clicks so far!
Thank you so much to the people, especially that one person ^-^ that have clicked the ads on the side!

It's a nice thing to wake up to in the morning.

Thanks a ton,
M.D.

Life is Just a Joke

My whole undergraduate degree is a mere illusion; an obstacle to pass in order to be accepted in another obstacle to pass in order to get the "good life" that may or may not be good.

What a pitiful life we live.

Lost and confused

I'm so lost SO lost!!! I don't know what to do.
I have an ecology assignment due on Tuesday and I don't know how to answer ANY of the questions. I also don't know how to search for them, and I asked two girls but they're not responding well. My teacher's office hours are two hours before the actual lab and I'm just freaking out. How can I even ask her about everything?! She'll think I'm a dumbass.
I also have a test in Death class tomorrow. It's mostly philosophical questions and I feel like I'll screw it up because I'm not sure what to study for!
I also have my discussion for psychology due today at midnight. I need to respond to two people and write my own thread. I hope it wont be a hard subject. I didn't read the chapter!!!!
What am I doing with my life!?

Quote of the Day: pokemon

me: Toki toki perrrri! (copying togepi)

Sister: Stop it! You're not cute!

;o;

Kizu (kiyohara hiro) (manga)

This is one of the mangas that I absolutely love. It even made my eyes a little glossy at the end! Trust me when I say that it takes a lot to make me touched!

This manga is about two boys (asato and keigo) who have experienced some form of abuse in the past, and because of it they stand out. They befriended each other after keigo cut himself while carving a wooden animal and asato absorbed his cut into his own body. With this special ability the story continues.

It's obviously a drama about friendship. And don't worry guys ! it has a nice and happy ending!

Augh! I wish I can find more stories like Kizu and Naked (Another manga I have made a post of in my blog).

Snitching

So, today in the lab I was talking to Kira about how my group in the last lab totally sabotaged the results of the assignment because they wanted to go home. I got pissed at that, because I didn't want it to happen, ad they kept insisting. They also told me to stop doing something because it was confusing them, even though what I do doesn't affect what they're doing. It was rather rude, specially since the person who said this wasn't doing anything!
When they left early like they wanted the prof walked over to me and looked at our results. It appears that we were the only group where the animal has gotten extinct, but she said it was okay. I wasn't okay about it and told the prof that "well, yeah, but we have a thirteen that could've made it, but they killed him off cause they wanted to go home"
It was just a game, and I was trying to have fun in the lab with it, but they totally killed it for me with their attitude towards me and the game.

Today the prof told us that we're to do today's assignment in class because in the last lab it appears some people have gotten their animals extinct to go home early.

When she said that, a guy in the (different) group I was in today, looked right at me because he overheard my convo with Kira. I know that the three girls I was doing the last lab with know it's me because i was the only one opposing to half of the shit that they kept doing wrong on purpose out of laziness.

But today was great, every single person worked, and when i teamed up with a guy in the group to analyze the phylogeny tree, he didn't mind at all. When I made mistakes we laughed it off ( I actually added a number/species that wasn't even in the list!) and when I gave ideas he encouraged them. We worked on this together, while Kira and the two other guys started solving the written problems and plotting out the final tree.

It was great, I hope I won't be left out of that group again. If I do, I'm going to the group where there are like a goth and her bf and another random dude. They seem friendly and smart.

Was what I did an over reaction or did they have it coming?
Comment below,
M.D.

MCAT 2015

They are making a new MCAT for 2015 (I'm graduating 2016, so just my luck) and I heard it is going to include Psychology!

I'm happy all those psyc classes I studied for as electives are gonna pay off, but WHY!? DOCTORS ARE NOT PERFECT! Why are you trying to look for super people? People who have volunteered and helped the community ( to see if they're social), people with high grades for MCAT and major (To see if they're smart), people who are members and leaders of societies (To see if they're leaders), Essays for entrance (to see their motives). A degree with a minimum of 5 courses a semester (to see how we can handle stress and pressure). God damn, I know a lot of people complain that doctors treat patients like objects, but I'm sure not all of them are like that. Psychology too? just keep piling shit on our backs, let us compete with each other over minute amount of seats!
I no longer know if I can pull all of this off, SPECIALLY after getting to know my competition. People who are actually smart enough to get a B+ in organic chem! Augh, I'm not even social! I'm also awkward, and you have noticed UNABLE to produce proper sentences with ease.

I honestly still am interested in being a doctor. I scratched the nurse idea because it sucks regardless of payment.

To be an MD or not to be?

Yes? No? maybe? I don't know.
M.D.

Note: Thank God I found my volunteer ID in the vest pockets as I had suspected!

Total Ditz

I was able to talk to my first year's bio professor about letting me one of his already full classes. He said it was fine. I love that prof. Officially my favorite professor ever.
He said he will also enter me in the genetics class if he is gonna teach it next semester. To do that, I have to switch my cell physiology lab and drop the geography course. God, there is so much to do!

I also noticed now, that I have lost my ID. I already lost my ID, and it's my first day to do meal assistance by myself. I hate myself!
I'm such a ditz, well, I'm not nicknamed moving disaster for nothing.
 I think I forgot my ID in one of the pockets of the volunteer vests. I don't know how the security will let me in.
If I want to make another one, I'll have to pay 10 dollars. Now that I think about it, who do I even go to for another approval for an ID. uh! the humiliation!

I'll try to go early and rummage through all the pockets. I'll tell the security, maybe he'll understand.

Anal Tension?!

"...that they must postpone the pleasure obtained from relieving anal tensions until they get to a bathroom..."

Seriously, who put these words together?

That's what I get for reading about the id, the ego, and the superego. Thanks Freud!