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Friday, January 31, 2014

double palpitations

I got my heart palpitations twice in karate today. This was new...
They're becoming more frequent in karate. I wonder if I tell this to a cardiologist, will he give me the device to measure my heartbeat with. Maybe this way I can record it. Ill see how much I can try to manipulate this heart beat.
I also think my sister has stress rash, but I dont wanna get her angry now. I think shes pmsing.

Damn, should I tell my sister about the palpitation? I'm still thinking about it. I know i don't wanna tell my parents because theyll over think it, but I also kind of wanna tell my sister. I mean I know my condition is not serious or anything, but I wanna tell  her about it. Maybe she'll keep track with me too because her memory is better. She'll also hate it if i dont tell her something. Then again, I'm keeping track here.....

Wednesday, January 29, 2014


i got my period today. that's pretty cool. I just realized i don't PMS. my sister agreed with me. no emotional turmoil...not much going on with crazy hormones either. I'm glad there wasn't any acute pain this time because I had classes, a lab, and a quiz.
The astro quiz went great, i might've only gotten one or two wrong from 14 questions. So, I lost a max of 2%.
Also, Henry, the co-pres of the bio society told me none of my namooras were left, so that's cool.
Glad today went so well.
I also ate lunch with my old ecology lab partner. She's pretty cool.


I don't even know how I just earned 0.01  $, did google give it to me out of pity or something? .___. so sad...

on the upside, namoora tasted great (second batch), sold it at the bio society bake sale, and at least 6 people bought from it. I don't know if there is any left overs, i don't know what they do with the left overs either. I want it back if there is any left ._. it's kind of bothering me.

astronomy test tomorrow. Inshallah I will get a good grade and be able to pray magrib on time!

Friday, January 24, 2014

El Arz

Yeah, the previous post is because I'm gonna try to be a bit more open minded in case i don't become a doctor or so. I mean, I don't know why I want to be a doctor, I really have no reason.

I went to career counselling today. I ended up writing things that are "significant" to me. I included several random things, like meeting up with my mom's side of the family, or my bitch principal, or green built in karate, or SAT, or university, Jet ski, travelling alone, cooking, getting a compliment, the creepy guy, ice skating, writing a poem, drawings, and having met a person with DID.

I really didn't know what to write, so I wrote some events that popped in my head really.

She told me to make catagories and label them accordingly. I ended up making a "proud" category and circled several accomplishments. She said most of my moments seemed to be coming when I do them alone. and I thought that was normal really. It isnt like I have a son to be proud of...I'm proud of something  I did all by myself!
I don't know really, but hey. It's always fun to sit down and talk about yourself, so I made another appointment for fun!

When it was over, I went to El Arz grocery market. it's an arabic store that sells the flower water I wanted. blossom water? No, it isn't something you drink. It's flavouring really. I love it in sweets!
It's for the namoora I wanna make this weekend. There were so many things there, I felt like I was where I belonged. I even saw some sweets that I haven't seen in Kuwait for ten years. Too bad I couldn't afford the extra weight.
I'll try going there every month of two for the meat and bread they have.
I also bought a lot of pita bread, because it's cheaper there, and some halal meat. Note to self: order extra lean beef next time!

I bought a lot of other things, they were so heavy to carry to the bus station, then to home. On the bus, the first thing I saw was a great dane in my face. I was baffled for a bit, then realized it's one of those special services dogs. Then his owner told me "alsalamu alaikum" in which I replied " wa alaikum al salam". If he's supposed to be blind, how did he know I was muslim. And if he can see, then why does he need a dog? I really wanna ask someone someday, but it's so odd. He seemed so friendly, and the guy was tall, thin, and good looking. Not my age though. I think he looked pretty cool hehehe..

I did my bio quiz, I'm done with my psych bonuses, and I've did a lot of dishes!

So, at least this day wasn't a complete waste. By the way, I also fasted today, to make up for when I didn't fast in ramadan. One more day to go, and I'll be debt free!

oh, btw THANK GOD, I found my ipod yesterday at the library's front desk. WOOH!

A list of job opportunity


Occupational therapist


Social worker

Speech language pathology


Biology Teacher/ tutor

Karate instructor

fruit fly dream

omg, I dreamt about fruit flies...though I was trying to discard them and i couldnt find a trash can so, I put them in quick sand o.o...then i pulled them out and dunked them in a pool. I'm like...going insane. and my lab instructor was sensei Lo

...then I took a ride on a luggage cart to the harbor where rachel (from friends) saved a baby killer whale and we decided to start a society on stopping littering cause it's damaging the marine life o_o...

I just seriously mixed my experiment, with my karate, with travelling, with the show I watch, with the anime I

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

bad things happen in odd numbers?

In addition to the two nightmares I had this week:
1) scratched the lense of my glasses ( still don't know how!)
2) lost my ipod ( wanted to look for it today at campus)
( this night was when i had my second nightmare of my upper lip being torn off)

so, I had a feeling there will be a third problem because I think bad things happen in odd numbers....and I was right!
3) so, today I dropped my phone in the snow while walking to the bus station and didn't realize this until I was half way there ._. 
but thank the lord I found it...and it was working..and there's no school...and.. my hands are still tingling from the cold.

I just...can't anymore....

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Glasses and Ipod

Yeah, so, today is not the best day.
I'm neither sad nor angry, just drained.

The stupid fly breeding thing is going no where, even though it has been a whole week. So, that's frustrating. When I was in the lab, I put my glasses in my pocket and wore the lab goggles, since I was using ether. When I put my glasses back on, there was this scratch that went from the top to the bottom of my lense I am so upset about that. It took forever to find those glasses, and they didn't even last a year and i dont even know what happened for God's sake!

Then after karate, I notice that, hey, wait a minute! I can't find my pink ipod nano. So, that's great! The last time i remember seeing it is when I was sitting in my little emo corner in the library and I removed the headphones from it to insert them into the tab. So, that's wonderful. I totally lost a 80 Kd device, so yeah about 230 dollars worth... and I was just too tired to go and look for it because I'll miss the bus and so I just went grocery shopping then went home.
Don't judge me, I've been in school since 8 Am and I reached home at 9 pm so, Tuesdays and thursdays aren't my days! I swear if someone points a gun at me after i go out of karate, I'll just walk past him and just...bleh

I just can' going to sleep now..I just can't..

- had heart palpitations tonight too-

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Fruit Flies

So, last semester we counted grass and this year we're breeding flies! We're moving up in this fucked up hierarchy!

After reading about 10 pages about flies and what to do for this fruit fly experiment there was a little note at the bottom and it said this:

Time flies like an arrow, fruit flies like a banana.

I couldn't help but laugh!

Another random moment:

Original Lyrics:
 If there's a place inside this world
Where hopes and dreams are not yet lost
We'll stand and climb against these walls
And fight this fight forever more

me: There's a place inside this world, where you can fuck yourself some more! :D ....idk why it came to mind, i thought I'll put it down 

Sunday, January 12, 2014

I'm Famous!

I'm in the UNIVERSITY SITE! I have two pictures of me in there. Of course, it's only because I'm in the karate club, but seriously?
This is pretty huge for me, it's super mega cool! I'm in the university site and with my hijab on and with the yellow belt on!
I don't look my best, but I look pretty decent! I'm also in the middle of the group picture and I feel like I just represented all of Islam because I'm wearing the hijab. Silly, I know!
It's really great though. I'm loving this!
It's all thanks to Marwa for sending me the link on facebook with "You're Famous!" 


Saturday, January 11, 2014

Skating in the Rain

Oh, my God, what a beautiful day I had with my friends: Justin, Revi, and her friend Scot.
Justin also got two of his friends to come too, which is great! the more the merrier.
I don't know if you guys remember, but us four were the same four who went to the Hal-con I previously talked about in my other posts. We had a blast then, and we had a blast now.

One problem though, it was raining! It was ridiculous weather, but Canadians! Apparently, weather doesn't stop us from going outside! I had like three pairs of socks on, three layers of clothing plus my rain coat so, I was totally prepared.

Revi told me I can use her old skates because they dont fit her anymore, and they fit me! We went skating and it was fine and dandy, but Justin doesn't know how to and it was just hilarious watching him try with Scot and Revi on either side of him pulling him along. I managed fine, I wasn't that great, but I can stand and skate (sorta) on my own.

Justin's friend fell FLAT on his face, he totally faceplanted. He landed on his chin though, which started bleeding. He was taken out of the rink and justin followed him. Later on, they skated one lap then decided to head home.

It was just us three then, Revi, Scot and I. each one took one hand and tried to drag me too, but I tried to reassure them that I can skate. you know, until my ankles started wobbling insanely and my right shin was in so much pain that I just had to go and sit down on the benches outside to stretch it out. I told them to skate without me and that I'd catch up, but they skated once and came after me. It was both sweet and bothersome. I didn't want them to lag behind because of me. I just needed a little break...but they stood by my side. Which was nice considering the first time I went ice skating with a "friend" i was totally ditched!

I tightened the skates then headed back with the duo to the rink. It was just great, us three skating in the rain. It felt really great, I didn't even feel cold. I started wobbling a bit after some time and Scot kept a hold of my hand because I refused to hold Revi, since I kept having this awful feeling that I'll drag her down with me if I fall. It was a little embarrassing holding his hand though, even though I had huge purple mittens. I let go every once in a while to skate on my own...then I fell on my hands and knees and quickly rose up. They looked so worried but I was okay, nothing really happened.
Then we decided to do one last lap then head home since my leg hurts, the skates are all lose and everyone is pretty much soaked.
The last lap was hilarious because Revi started this rhyme scheme when I said  "Good thing I didn't fall on my face" which she replied to "in this darn place" and Scot just added "we're getting close to base" and we just kept saying strange things like "what an awful disgrace" "were not being chased" "if we were we'll use mace" "that has great taste" " these memories I dont want erased"
It was just too much fun!

And then we walked out and I gave Revi the ring I got for her from Kuwait, and I think she loved it. Of course since it's a ring, a few marry me jokes popped in. I told her she's gonna have the babies! She told me I can keep the skates and I felt a bit bad about that. I mean, I don't skate a lot!!!
We walked together to the bus station, and on the way we laughed and poked fun together. It was great, I gave them and awkward good bye and then I continued my walk home.

It was just and amazing day. I came home with soaked pants, but otherwise I was pretty dry. My cheeks and thighs were really red though, and then i went back outside to pick a few things from the grocery store for my sister to cook. We ended up not cooking and eating leftovers and eggs!
I knew it would happen, but I just didn't wanna leave the house tomorrow!
My sister and I are totally hooked on Friends now, as if we didn't watch it before! but, I never watched it in order before. It's just the series is so hysterical, but I always feel bad about the Ross and Rachel relationshit. Chandler, however, is AWESOME!

Augh, I hope we go ice skating again...or just hang out again, the four of us!


Friday, January 10, 2014

Pain (a poem)

So..There's this girl that read my poem that is on fictionpress yesterday. I didn't ask her to, it was posted on one of my profiles and when she read it, she told me it was beautiful, that I should keep writing, and that comparing blood and tears to ink was "quite the simile".
I was really surprised, but she made me happy. I can't believe she thought so greatly of my poem!

Here's the link to the poem by the way: Pain

don't be afraid to tell me what you think, either in fictionpress, or in the comments. I also do have several ideas on things but i always end up preferring the internet over actually creating something!

I also got a check for a 130$ from...I think the taxes or the government, since I'm unemployed. They think I aught to spend a dollar a day too! as if anyone can survive by spending a dollar a day in Canada. maybe in kuwait, where food is cheaper? still happy about the hundred bucks. I hope I also get a hundred bucks from this site too! (you see there's a reason why I have Ads in my page!).
My sister also is trying to make a hundred bucks by a search engine called "swagbucks". For every 10 000 swag bucks she gets a hundred dollars. We only have 700 We suck right?...We really suck! Today I got like 72 bucks for answering a survey though! so im thinking I'll keep doing those until I get a few hundred a month.

I also just bought a handmade keychain from a deaf lady. it's nice that she's contributing in a way. I'll post pics later.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Green Belt

Yey! i got the green belt today in karate and I also gave the class baklava and they all loved it. Everyone ate at least two! it was great.
for lunch i cooked some sweet and sour shrimps. Next time i need to like..triple the sauce recipe.

I also went to the dentist and got my teeth cleaned. I really need to just sit down and do nothing. I'm tired and bullshit didnt even start yet.

Monday, January 6, 2014

First day of Second Semester of Second Year

....stupid title I know, but i'm still jet lagged and tired. I don't even wanna talk about the psychotic trip from kuwait to london to montreal to moncton all through 3 planes then the 3 hour shuttle bus ride to was fucking exhausting.

first class today was Genetics. So, we have this chinese prof that comes to us and tells us a nice story...he starts with this:
"Hello everyone, this class will be a challenge for the both of us since I never taught genetics before!"

then he goes on with this: " but don't worry guys! I read the book in two days and my current research has to do with genetics....PLUS! I studied genetics 35 years ago!"

and we're like LOL... kill us now...

but he seems like a sweet heart.

second class started with a soft rock tune with the slides as the prof waited for the students to settle down. he then introduced himself as David. He said some people call him David, or dave. Others may call him professor, dr. or teacher, his wife called him asshole last night and sometimes she calls him a "big big jerk".

Well then!

My other psych class was memory, and i think ill be dropping it. doesn't seem all that worth it really.

So, i may be taking Astronomy instead, but the dude rambles on forever. He even explained the saying " it's cold enough to freeze the balls off the brass monkey" which...surprisingly for me has nothing to do with removing the testicles of a monkey!
That was somewhat interesting.

I also slipped on black ice and fell on my way to class. My pants were soaked and i was so not happy about that!

I hope my other classes for tomorrow are good!